Early morning shocker part 3

I haven't posted prior to today because I needed to get my thoughts in order.
It's been a few days since Delene's "memorial".
You'll note I now put it in quotes - because it wasn't a memorial, it was an Intercessory Mass.
Talk about blindsiding - first I find out after 10 years of knowing someone that they were Catholic. Then, I arrive at what is ostensibly a memorial service to find out that it's a full blown Mass.
For someone who in all reality, wasn't Catholic, was certainly not religious, and conducted only because of familial guilt.
I arrived late because I had issues finding the church where the service was being held, and signed the guest book. I took a program and a prayer card without looking at them and entered the chapel, taking a seat in the rear pew.
At that point, I began to take stock of my surroundings - and realized I was in the middle of a Mass, not a memorial service.
I looked at the program, and then at the prayer card, and promptly folded them up and put them in my pocket, thought another second about the hypocrisy involved, and left.
I am a lot of things, however I avoid hypocrisy whenever possible.
Hypocrisy? Oh yeah. That service wasn't about Delene - it was her estranged family working through the guilt of her suicide by conducting an Intercessory Mass.
And don't hand me that tripe about "funerals are for the living".
Further hypocrisy - Delene wasn't a practicing anything. She probably considered herself Christian, but certainly not Catholic.
Catholicism teaches that suicide is a Mortal Sin - it ranks up there with murder as one of the Big Sins - for which you are condemned to Hell, no redemption.
What an Intercessory Mass is supposed to do is enlist the aid of a Saint in getting you out of Hell.
In Delene's case, because of her love of animals, they chose St. Francis of Assisi.

Delene, I hope that where ever you are you know the peace that eluded you in life.
I personally believe you've found that you've already been reincarnated because of your actions, however those beliefs are mine and mine alone.
Regardless, I wish you only peace.

Early morning shocker part 2

Delene's memorial is today. This is decidedly not how I would choose to spend a Saturday, believe me. I'm not sure what to expect other than I'll be seeing a number of people I haven't seen in years however who have been integral in my life. 
The big controversy remains in how the blame game is going to be played. 
When I say the blame game, I'm talking about who's guilt is going to make them lash out at whoever they perceive as the 'reason' Delene took her own life. 
Honestly, the blame, if there is any, is Delene's and Delene's alone. She was on major meds for depression and possibly sleep disorder, and those meds had recently been changed. 
She was familiar with the reactions of alcohol with her previous meds, however apparently the new meds didn't quite mix the same way.
I'm sounding like I'm blaming Delene, and I guess in a way I am.
Don't get me wrong, I loved her.
However, no one forced her to drink - she made that choice and unfortunately paid the price.
The most horrible thing about all this is the mess that's left for the survivors to deal with.